Did I say that I felt relieved, well I was lying. Or actually, I shouldn’t say that, I was relieved for that moment, that day, even that entire week. But then another Wednesday roles around, and the stress level picks up again, and I feel like I’m back at square one. Another observed lesson that I know this time will go all wrong for sure. It’s the buildup, I’ve decided; it’s the not knowing how it’s going to play out in front of an audience. I know I’m capable of creating and managing a great “effective” lesson, because I have. I just hate the total control of it, the feeling that everything has to go right and therefore anything and everything can go wrong.
If anyone is wondering why teachers can become control freaks? answer= student teaching